Please Forgive Me - Bryan Adams

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I want to love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it good
So if I love you, a little more than I should

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying
That's why I'm saying,

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Babe believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you
No, believe me, I don't know what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

I can't stop, loving you

:')

Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman

She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling at me
Saying "Dad, I need you

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

She will be gone

Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
But I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

Sweet father and daughter song :')
if my daddy ever sing me this, I'll definitely burst into tears. It tells exactly how hard the burdens in his shoulders, yet he's still trying to be there for us. Love you no matter what pop!

Cause I know something the prince never knew :')

Father is daughter's first love

Someday I'll find my prince but daddy will always be my king - michelle antonio

Random me

Sometimes I think how unstable me can actually be. Like this thing that bothering me for example. Well, it's nice to help others, to hear stories, burdens, sadness, or whatever. Keeping everyone happy is my favourite job. I'm the type of girl that can still look at you and smile, and is willing to brighten your day, even if I can't brighten my own. I gain self gratification by seeing others happy.

But in the other hand, sometimes it makes me think, is this an advantage? Or disadvantage? I mean on my behalf. I just don't know... Cos actually it's my "natural" behaviour, I don't make it up, it's was there all along. Anyone can come up with an answer?

Anxiety

I know I'm not suppose to do this. Like too much looking backwards. Life is moving forward, and that's exactly what I'm suppose to do. But I can't deny how much I missed those moments. Friends, happiness, simple things and simple minds. I live my life to its fullest back there. Now? Haha. I don't even know what am I doing with my life. What actually happened in it? How do I suppose to live it? Where did all the spirits go? I don't have the answer.

And now. At this very moment I'm writing this, something crossed my mind. One of my happiest memory, that brought me that tickling kind of feeling. That moment. Nothing special about it, I must say. Simple yet unworthy for the one who actually did it, I bet that person didn't even remember.
But precious to me. At that time, I finally feel "excepted", being recognise, that I was actually there.

But remembering it now give me this uneasy feeling. Cos time goes on, people change, and life is moving on. Well, now other than "that", my existence is being question *sorry if I'm confusing you". I'm laughing at myself and thingking, what possibly made me think that it was going to last? I'm just so naïve. Like a little girl who actually believes in fairy tale. That it was actually about to happened to me. Nope! Life doesn't work that way rin.

Guess all I can do now is accept it, shallow it hard, and move along this new path. Like one of my besties said, I've done my best, even being a total moron is still better than not trying at all *thanks tya*
Having friends who always there to support you is surely a huge blessing, they never call me a drama queen or a scumbag *even when I feel I do* and that's why I thank God for putting them in my life.
They are one of the things that I still treasure the most.

Well", we'll just see what life wanna do with me, and where it's taking me. All I can do is surrender, and maybe try to figure out a new way to live this life. I know God's planning something for me, and nothing is more beautiful than his plans right? :')

War Of My Life

Come out angels,
Come out ghosts,
Come out darkness,
Bring everyone you know.
I'm not running,
and I'm not scared,
I am waiting,
And well prepared.

Shadow Days - John Mayer

Born and Raise is going to be release soon! Here's the single from JM. You can also take a look at his MV on youtube. Such a talented singer. I miss his voice more than ever. Enjoy! c:


Did you know that you could be wrongAnd swear you're rightSome people been known to do itAll their lives
But you find yourself alone
Just like you found yourself before
Like I found myself in pieces
On my hotel floor
Hard times help me see
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now
Well I'm not some trouble maker
And I never meant her harm
But it doesn't mean I didn't make it
Hard to carry on
Well it sucks to be honest (honest)
And it hurts to be real
But it starts to make some love
That I can finally feel
Hard times let me be
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now



I love the song too much. Not only because it's been ages since his last song *because of the granuloma, he had to rest for a while* but simply because it also describes me too well. I guess he feels what I feel at this very moment. LOL. I want my shadow days to be over. And eventually everything will be ok. Cos like he said : it sucks to be honest, and it hurts to be real. But it starts to make some love that I can finally feel. Hard times let me see c:

Run To You - Whitney Houston

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find

Oh a girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you, I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me

Oh what's the sense
Of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?

I wanna run to you, I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away, run away, no

I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears, no
If you only knew how much

I wanna run to you and I wanna run to you
Oh won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away