Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman

She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling at me
Saying "Dad, I need you

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

She will be gone

Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
But I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

Sweet father and daughter song :')
if my daddy ever sing me this, I'll definitely burst into tears. It tells exactly how hard the burdens in his shoulders, yet he's still trying to be there for us. Love you no matter what pop!

Cause I know something the prince never knew :')

Father is daughter's first love

Someday I'll find my prince but daddy will always be my king - michelle antonio

Random me

Sometimes I think how unstable me can actually be. Like this thing that bothering me for example. Well, it's nice to help others, to hear stories, burdens, sadness, or whatever. Keeping everyone happy is my favourite job. I'm the type of girl that can still look at you and smile, and is willing to brighten your day, even if I can't brighten my own. I gain self gratification by seeing others happy.

But in the other hand, sometimes it makes me think, is this an advantage? Or disadvantage? I mean on my behalf. I just don't know... Cos actually it's my "natural" behaviour, I don't make it up, it's was there all along. Anyone can come up with an answer?

Anxiety

I know I'm not suppose to do this. Like too much looking backwards. Life is moving forward, and that's exactly what I'm suppose to do. But I can't deny how much I missed those moments. Friends, happiness, simple things and simple minds. I live my life to its fullest back there. Now? Haha. I don't even know what am I doing with my life. What actually happened in it? How do I suppose to live it? Where did all the spirits go? I don't have the answer.

And now. At this very moment I'm writing this, something crossed my mind. One of my happiest memory, that brought me that tickling kind of feeling. That moment. Nothing special about it, I must say. Simple yet unworthy for the one who actually did it, I bet that person didn't even remember.
But precious to me. At that time, I finally feel "excepted", being recognise, that I was actually there.

But remembering it now give me this uneasy feeling. Cos time goes on, people change, and life is moving on. Well, now other than "that", my existence is being question *sorry if I'm confusing you". I'm laughing at myself and thingking, what possibly made me think that it was going to last? I'm just so naïve. Like a little girl who actually believes in fairy tale. That it was actually about to happened to me. Nope! Life doesn't work that way rin.

Guess all I can do now is accept it, shallow it hard, and move along this new path. Like one of my besties said, I've done my best, even being a total moron is still better than not trying at all *thanks tya*
Having friends who always there to support you is surely a huge blessing, they never call me a drama queen or a scumbag *even when I feel I do* and that's why I thank God for putting them in my life.
They are one of the things that I still treasure the most.

Well", we'll just see what life wanna do with me, and where it's taking me. All I can do is surrender, and maybe try to figure out a new way to live this life. I know God's planning something for me, and nothing is more beautiful than his plans right? :')

War Of My Life

Come out angels,
Come out ghosts,
Come out darkness,
Bring everyone you know.
I'm not running,
and I'm not scared,
I am waiting,
And well prepared.

Shadow Days - John Mayer

Born and Raise is going to be release soon! Here's the single from JM. You can also take a look at his MV on youtube. Such a talented singer. I miss his voice more than ever. Enjoy! c:


Did you know that you could be wrongAnd swear you're rightSome people been known to do itAll their lives
But you find yourself alone
Just like you found yourself before
Like I found myself in pieces
On my hotel floor
Hard times help me see
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now
Well I'm not some trouble maker
And I never meant her harm
But it doesn't mean I didn't make it
Hard to carry on
Well it sucks to be honest (honest)
And it hurts to be real
But it starts to make some love
That I can finally feel
Hard times let me be
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now



I love the song too much. Not only because it's been ages since his last song *because of the granuloma, he had to rest for a while* but simply because it also describes me too well. I guess he feels what I feel at this very moment. LOL. I want my shadow days to be over. And eventually everything will be ok. Cos like he said : it sucks to be honest, and it hurts to be real. But it starts to make some love that I can finally feel. Hard times let me see c: