Please Forgive Me - Bryan Adams

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I want to love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it good
So if I love you, a little more than I should

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do

So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying
That's why I'm saying,

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Babe believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you
No, believe me, I don't know what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you

I can't stop, loving you

:')

Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman

She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling at me
Saying "Dad, I need you

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

She will be gone

Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
But I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

Sweet father and daughter song :')
if my daddy ever sing me this, I'll definitely burst into tears. It tells exactly how hard the burdens in his shoulders, yet he's still trying to be there for us. Love you no matter what pop!

Cause I know something the prince never knew :')

Father is daughter's first love

Someday I'll find my prince but daddy will always be my king - michelle antonio

Random me

Sometimes I think how unstable me can actually be. Like this thing that bothering me for example. Well, it's nice to help others, to hear stories, burdens, sadness, or whatever. Keeping everyone happy is my favourite job. I'm the type of girl that can still look at you and smile, and is willing to brighten your day, even if I can't brighten my own. I gain self gratification by seeing others happy.

But in the other hand, sometimes it makes me think, is this an advantage? Or disadvantage? I mean on my behalf. I just don't know... Cos actually it's my "natural" behaviour, I don't make it up, it's was there all along. Anyone can come up with an answer?

Anxiety

I know I'm not suppose to do this. Like too much looking backwards. Life is moving forward, and that's exactly what I'm suppose to do. But I can't deny how much I missed those moments. Friends, happiness, simple things and simple minds. I live my life to its fullest back there. Now? Haha. I don't even know what am I doing with my life. What actually happened in it? How do I suppose to live it? Where did all the spirits go? I don't have the answer.

And now. At this very moment I'm writing this, something crossed my mind. One of my happiest memory, that brought me that tickling kind of feeling. That moment. Nothing special about it, I must say. Simple yet unworthy for the one who actually did it, I bet that person didn't even remember.
But precious to me. At that time, I finally feel "excepted", being recognise, that I was actually there.

But remembering it now give me this uneasy feeling. Cos time goes on, people change, and life is moving on. Well, now other than "that", my existence is being question *sorry if I'm confusing you". I'm laughing at myself and thingking, what possibly made me think that it was going to last? I'm just so naïve. Like a little girl who actually believes in fairy tale. That it was actually about to happened to me. Nope! Life doesn't work that way rin.

Guess all I can do now is accept it, shallow it hard, and move along this new path. Like one of my besties said, I've done my best, even being a total moron is still better than not trying at all *thanks tya*
Having friends who always there to support you is surely a huge blessing, they never call me a drama queen or a scumbag *even when I feel I do* and that's why I thank God for putting them in my life.
They are one of the things that I still treasure the most.

Well", we'll just see what life wanna do with me, and where it's taking me. All I can do is surrender, and maybe try to figure out a new way to live this life. I know God's planning something for me, and nothing is more beautiful than his plans right? :')

War Of My Life

Come out angels,
Come out ghosts,
Come out darkness,
Bring everyone you know.
I'm not running,
and I'm not scared,
I am waiting,
And well prepared.

Shadow Days - John Mayer

Born and Raise is going to be release soon! Here's the single from JM. You can also take a look at his MV on youtube. Such a talented singer. I miss his voice more than ever. Enjoy! c:


Did you know that you could be wrongAnd swear you're rightSome people been known to do itAll their lives
But you find yourself alone
Just like you found yourself before
Like I found myself in pieces
On my hotel floor
Hard times help me see
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now
Well I'm not some trouble maker
And I never meant her harm
But it doesn't mean I didn't make it
Hard to carry on
Well it sucks to be honest (honest)
And it hurts to be real
But it starts to make some love
That I can finally feel
Hard times let me be
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now
I'm a good man with a good heartHad a tough time, got a rough startAnd I finally learned to let it goNow I'm right here, and I'm right nowAnd I'm hoping, knowing somehowThat my shadows days are overMy shadow days are over now



I love the song too much. Not only because it's been ages since his last song *because of the granuloma, he had to rest for a while* but simply because it also describes me too well. I guess he feels what I feel at this very moment. LOL. I want my shadow days to be over. And eventually everything will be ok. Cos like he said : it sucks to be honest, and it hurts to be real. But it starts to make some love that I can finally feel. Hard times let me see c:

Run To You - Whitney Houston

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find

Oh a girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you, I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me

Oh what's the sense
Of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?

I wanna run to you, I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away, run away, no

I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears, no
If you only knew how much

I wanna run to you and I wanna run to you
Oh won't you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm?
I wanna run to you but if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

A Very Good Quote

A very good quote :

Love your parents. We are so busy growing up, we often forget, they are also growing old

In Another Life?

It's been a month since om Agus passed away. Still don't wanna believe he can't be with us anymore... I still can hear his voice in my head... Seeing his sight in my mind... Hearing his jokes in my ears... and silently smiling everytime I remember those moments... But I know we have to let him go... Cos God has waited for him, in his new house, we shall not hold him down :')

God has set a proper place for him, special place beside Him. Where there are no sorrow, no stress, no pain, no sickness. A place full of glory and joyful. A brand new life for him :')

Been a tough month for all of us. Especially auntie Tina and fam. But I believe things will get better somehow. Cos God never leave us alone.

Whatever condition He puts us in, just surrender. For He will hold our hand and guide us through, even in our hardest moment. Never ever doubt Him for any reasons, cos there's nothing more wonderful than God's plans :') have faith.

Time passes by and everyone is still trying to recover, but life has to keep on moving. It's hard, I know, but hey no one ever say life will ever be easy :)

He has done his best during life, it's our time now to continue his "duty". Cos he's not leaving, he lives in our heart. From there he'll continue seeing the world. With our eyes. That's why we gotta do the best in life. Do not dissapoint him :)

RIP om. Our moments are so short yet so precious. Feel really grateful to know you :') If in another life God made us met, I hope I can know you better :') we'll never forget you.

So long Agus Pambudi, till we meet again someday. In God's home. In heaven :')

He FOLLOWED ME!

I.was.STUNNED! I can't believe my eyes! John is back to twitterland and HE FOLLOWED ME! I'm speechless! I was just soooo happy! :D welcome back john!

Quote Of The Day

" High expectation leads to high disappointment. So to keep it safe, just let things flow"

Me, Me, and Me :)

Bounjour people :D le me come back to blog business! LOL. Okay first, let me get things straight: the truth is I have no idea what to do right now. I don't have anything to do for the weekend which makes it extremely boring and nearly kills me inside #lebay *I've just got so bored being bored!*

So, before I ended up screwing my mood, I decided to surf on the internet to catch some things up. Well, HUGE thanks to my bb, cos maa has disconnected my bundling for about 2 months now +.+ Mommy, you really need to get things ready ASAP cos I just can't stand living without internet!

Now, where was I? Oh, the part I-have-to-much-spare-time-to-waste thing. So I decided to write another post. Well, better do something than nothing right? Unfortunately, my mind is kinda "fuzzy" right now, none popped up my mind. So I really don't know what to write :/ What about some facts about me? :) Me couldn't be that bad, could I? LOL

ME :

• Daughter of Jesus

• 18 years old *and getting older in no time. SIGHT!*

• A full time student

• The one and only

• Beautiful in my own way ;)

• Love my Daddy in heaven

• A proud Catholic

• Love my family and friends

• Heart my Jack ♥

• Talkative

• Music is within me

• HUGE fan of John C. Mayer

• Heart jazz

• Simple

• A good listener :p

• Violinist

• Pretty touchy person

• Skinny *need extra weight!*

• Independent

• Like being in the crowds

• Like to get to know new friends :)

• Wearing glasses

• Hate insects

• Love hanging out!

• Insomniac +.+

• Coffee addict

• Movie lover

• Bookworm

• Heart italian food, especially pasta

• Don't be so quick to judge me ;)

• Get tired of waiting

• Smile is my weapon

• Hate being bored

• A bit moody

• Just can't get mad

• Love disney

• Long reddish hair

• Hate backstabbers

• Colourful

• Not a modest girl, I wear what I'm comfortable with

• There's something about me and escalators...

• Friendly

• Heart sci-fi

• Le me love cats :3

• Superheroes B)

• Like to cook

• Happy being me :)

You can comment and share me yours if you like :D

This Is Not Goodbye

So, last friday me and some friends went to soetta to meet Jean who is going to continue her study in Aussie. Well, this is going to be our last meeting till next year. We also made her a gift. So that she knew that even we're far in sight, but we'll always be close in heart :) me, thea and others experienced some difficulties during the making, but glad it's finally done *and she loves it :))*

isn't it sad :(( I just can't hold my tears...

L to R : Radhit, Thea, Jean, Me, Kehe

all of us :)

our present :)

So long Jean :') gonna miss you like hell. Looking forward for your return honeey :*

Distance?

6° 15' South, 106° 54' East.
and
1° 22' North, 103° 45' East.

556 miles...

Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

You're not alone, together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold and it feels like the end
There's no place to go, you know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you


There's nothing you could say, nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through


So far away, I wish you were here
Before it's too late this could all disappear
Before the door's closed and it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah


Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say, nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through


Hear me when I say when I say, I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah


Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you


There's nothing you could say, nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through


Keep holding on

Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say, nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

:)

University Life

Hell-o :D
Long time no post (?) LOL
Since I've been studying in the university for the last one month *big girl now B)* I find it too tiring to even write a post :\ Recently, my days are full of assignments. Essay and essay :\

Hmm, about my new "life", I have to say that college life is totally different. You'll have much "spare time" while waiting from one class to another, and it's up to 6 even 8 hours a day! For me, too much spare time is such a pain, I don't know what to do to kill the time! Fortunately, my schedule cooperates me well *considering the distance between my house and campus and most importantly the traffic jam which is like hell during morning and noon* 2 hours are not enough for me to get there in the morning :\

Most of my books is sooo heavy. It looks like a gigantic dictionary. It has the size of yellow pages book! Geez, have mercy on me :\
All of them are in english except for 2 subjects. They are kinda pricey, so I decided to only buy some *which I think necessary*
I borrowed one from kelvin's cousin, and still haven't bough the others yet. Don't know what to do when mid term exam's coming .___. Maybe I'll just borrow it from friends

I'm in section F. My class has around 50 students in it *I haven't remembered all of them yet*
Well, so far so good. All of them are nice and friendly. I get to know them more lately.
My girls are cool! Maya, Tika, Devita, Nesia, Stefanie, Melda, Anna and me. We're hanging out a lot. Usually to fill that "spare time" while waiting for classes. Or discussing homework *which usually happens to me* had much fun with them tho :)

Too bad today Devita had just have an unfortunate event :( her lovely blackberry was lost. Someone took it while she's studying with her friend. So sorry to hear that Devita :(

Back to the topic, well, more or less, I quite like my campus. I enjoy studying there. Ok, maybe just SOME lessons interest me, even I found some teacher rather annoying. But it's still cool.

What I hate is that my parents didn't allow me to rent a room and live near my campus. I know it's killing their wallet, but can't they see that I have to struggle A LOT just to get there? I can find somewhere cheaper if money is the problem. Besides I'll just stay overnight and do all other things in campus.
Still, they blinded their eyes and force me to come home through all that long way who still have waited hours for buses under so freakin HOT day just to see me come home looking tired and powerless.
I can't even find times to study cos I spend most of them *and energy too* on my loong way home.

Nevertheless, since it's my own decision to study there, I have to accept all the consequences and deal with it.

Fiuh, pretty long story eh? Well, I have to catch up some missing posts, ain't I? LOL
Well, I better get going now. I have assignment to do :\ I'll post another story as soon as possible. See ya later alligator ;)

Don't Sleep Away This Night

Tomorrow's near, never I felt this way
Tomorrow, how empty it'll be that day
It tastes a bitter, obvious to tears that I hide
To know that you're my only light
I love you, oh I need you
Oh, yes I do

Don't sleep away this night my baby
Please stay with me at least 'till dawn
It hurts to know another hour has gone by
And every minute is worthwhile
Oh, I love you

How many lonely days are there waiting for me
How many seasons will flow over me
'Till the emotions make my tears run dry
At the moments I should cry
For I love you, oh I need you
Oh, yes I do

Don't sleep away this night my baby
Please stay with me at least 'till dawn
It hurts to know another hour has gone by
And every minute is worthwhile
It makes me so afraid

Don't sleep away this night my baby
Please stay with me at least 'till dawn
It hurts to know another hour has gone by
The reason is still I love you

:')

AKSI Camp

Hellohellohellooo, I've just got back from a 3 days-super-tiring-orientation-camp in Batu Tapak, sukabumi *huff*

We, all the new students of economy, have to join this camp due to the graduation qualification. So to be able to graduate we have to attend 3 kind of orientations. So me have to attend this camp +.+

We went there by tronton *don't know what it calls in english* my favourite kind of transportation *in a sarcasm way ofcourse -__-* Which is sooo HOT and full of people + bags *phew

After a long and tiring journey, we finally arrived. The place is nice and clean but the weather was unpredictable. It's cold in early morning, extremely HOT during noon, then absolutely cold during the night * so cold I couldn't even feel my legs .__.* Sudden rain also happened sometimes

We have to stay in a small tent with four people in it *I can barely move while asleep* Well, my group name is Karol 10. We have a guardian angel *a senior who guard us* name Steven. He's a funny guy and a kind of enjoy-whatever-happened person. It's kinda sad seeing him. Why? Because we all mocked him and called him "angel gabut" *sorry tepen, we didn't mean to :p* He didn't know anything about the events. He always say IDK, or like I care. Haha. Funny, indeed, but I feel sorry for him sometimes. LOL . But he's a nice angel. He took a good care of us :)

About the event itself, hmm, nothing much. Just playing games, session and stuff. But it's fun! I've got to know new friends too :) I just hate one thing about the camp. It's the sun. It shines too brightly I got skin burnt all over my body -___- I look like a giant crab! geez -___-

And oh the time managing of the crews need some improvements. We waited and waited and waited. Too much waiting .___. On the first night, we have to wait about 4 hours until we have the chance to do the "kolong langit" task. We drink *or eat?* black coffee powder. Yaks! On the last day my tronton's got delayed for 4 hours! Can you imagine? We have to wait in a field on a very sunny day and with a bag full of stuffs *so heavy!* The unfortunate event is that makes me can't watch harry potter :(

Too bad! I've promised Michelle to watch the movie together but finally had to cancelled it :( so sorry michii :( we'll watch transformer together ok mich! Hehe :)

Well, overall it was a great camp :D I got great team too! We have much fun together. Thanks Karol 10 and also Tepen for the great experience ;)

L to R : ka pingkan, ka yulia, cathelia, nicole, biaz, bianca, caecil, wandha, me, marcella, josephine, arman, angel gabut : ka tepen :P

You and I - Michael Buble

Here we are
On earth together
It's you and I
God has made us fall in love
It's true
I've really found
Someone like you

Will it stay
The love you feel for me
Will you say
That you will be by my side
To see me through
Until my life is through
Well in my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I...

I'm glad
At least in my life
I've found someone
That may not be here forever
To see me through
But I found strength in you
Cause in my mind
You will stay here always
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I

In my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I...

Such a lovely song. One of my favourite ♥

Brainless Tales

While tumblr-ing I accidentally saw a reblog of Brainless Tales. Look at this picture. ROFL. I guess I've just found a really interesting website. Very creative. You have to check it out guys! many interesting yet funny *even silly* stuff are in there. LOL. It'll burst you into laughter! Just simply click the web on this post or in my blog mates list. Don't miss it ;)